Time for an Introduction...and Thanks

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Journaling and a few questions I guess...
Thanksgiving was good. Decided to go to MILs house. Son was already there and daughter of course wanted to go hang out with everyone. H was there already when we got there although he had said he would be working late. We exchanged greetings and then I proceeded to go about my business. Helped MIL with food preparations, watched a little football with FIL, and caught up with nephew and SIL.

Was relaxing by myself on one of the living room couches after food clean up when H came in and laid down on the opposite couch. Wanted to know if I was staying over (MILs house is a good hour from our house) I told him I wasn't sure and he wanted to know why not? He asked if I was mad at him and I said no, not at all, I'm just not sure what I was going to do, if his sister and I were going shopping the next moring, etc.. Little chit chat back and forth. MIL set up an aerobed for me in another room and said it was getting late, I should stay. Laid in bed watching a little TV when H decided to join me. We ML and I commented to him that was never an issue with us. He agreed. Fell asleep until H had to leave for work the next day.

Got unexpected phone call from H the next morning as the kids and I were out shopping. He wanted to know what the plans for that evening were. MIL had invited me to a local casino as she was picking up her sister that afternoon and would be staying there for the weekend. I told him I had planned on meeting his mother there but if he wanted to come too I'm sure that would be fine. Our D could watch our S at his mother's house while we were out. To my surprise, he agreed.

Ended up having dinner at the casino with his mom and aunt. Gambled a bit then returned to his mother's house. He asked me to stay the night again so I did. H left for work the next morning and I returned home with the kids. I did speak to him on the phone that afternoon but have not spoken to him since then (saturday afternoon)

Here's where my heart and head are having difficulty reconciling...what has been other peoples experience in terms of ML with spouse when they're separated? I know for me, I of course feel closer to my H when we do. I'm of the opinion that as this was something important to him when he was at home if the opportunity presents itself I should take it.I believe it keeps him connected to me on some level that persists long after we're apart.
We had a little bit of R talk on Friday night. Maybe more than I should but I've been curious if he feels the way I do at all. When I see him (usually) I still think how handsome he is and can't help but think of him and I together. He said he thinks the same thing when he sees me and he misses it. I just said "I do too" and left it at that. I don't feel exceptionally sad or upset after these times together. I actually feel a little better like the connection is still there. Is that weird?
We haven't spoken to each other since then which isn't unusual but it's frustrating sometimes.
Keeping my expectations low. Focusing on the kids and everything they have going on and making plans with my friends for the weekend.
How is everyone else doing??