I took the kids to the gabba gabba show. I promised myself that we would have a blast and we did! I won't deny it was hard as well - this was our family show, H and I used to sing and dance with our girls. He really missed out - the girls first show in their lives and they were so cute.
H took OW to a football game instead. Our college team's rivalry game... That was another of our things. The biggest game of the season - we would talk about it for days beforehand and we attended almost every year - for the last 19 years. Ouch...
I am trying to get mentally prepared to more of these- everything we used to do together, he is now starting to do with OW. And more.
Things he never did with me - writing and sharing literature and poetry, doing adventurous and romantic trips, going to new places we always talked about going together...
Anyways, after the show on Saturday I went to my cousin's house. She and her kids are the only blood relatives I have in this city besides my aging parents. We had a good time and we spent the night. It's nice to be with family and feel supported and loved.
Overall, a good day. But still hard to get H out of my mind. I miss him so much and everything reminds me of him. 19 years together - it's hard not to turn around and find something that reminds me of our marriage. I can't help but think that it could have not all been that bad. H says it was all terrible. It's sad we have such different memories of it.
Me & H: 44 D7, D6, S3 Together: 20y, M: 17y EA: 11/13/10, Sep: 12/23/10 EA becomes PA: Spring 2011 H filed for D: 09/06/12 D Negotiating began 2/15 OW seemingly gone on 3/15 Still negotiating D
