I am in a very sad mood today. I am seeing the writing on the wall.. at least at this moment, my h and I no longer speak.. we have turned solely to text messages.. Thanksgiving received a text from H, wishing me and the kids a good day.. yesterday received a text stating he would pick up d after school, then explained he would maybe be going to a basketball game wednesday night, so she could just come home normal on Wed.
I dont understand what I did to deserve all of this, it is truly like I lived a lie for over a decade. He just turned me off.. I am so heart broken. I havent cried in weeks. but I can feel the tears today.
nothing really matters when it comes to us, I should be happy that at least he is making the effort to see his daughter once a week. I keep believing he will make the effort to at least show me we arent over, but he doesnt. he is rebuilding his life. and what I show him is I am doing the same, but I am truly dying a little inside everyday.
It hasnt got easier, if anything it has gotten harder.
m 41 h 44 d 17 (prev marriage) d 9 Never give up!!!!!
