Hi JaeC, thanks so much for your response. I completely agree with you that somehow reading other posts helps to feel less alone. So much in this, I am feeling confused, frustrated and many times alone. It is a hard road to travel.
I truly hope that this will help my marriage. I really do love my H, but if nothing else I know that ultimately I will be helping myself and my sons.
Getting back to a routine this week will be good, although have to admit that first day back yesterday was very tough. Now that I am over that hump, I think I'm ok.
Thankfully things are pretty busy around here this week. In addition to the kids activities I am going to be sure to plan some GAL activities for myself.
