I find it so difficult living on my own. I need physical touch and there is nobody there for me. I suppose that is selfish, I should be more concerned with W feelings.
After the episode Friday AM I hoped there might be a warming, but so far there is nothing. Throwing myself onto the roller coaster I suppose. I have tried to convince myself that I don't want her but that lasts about 2 minutes. I am aware that she has faults, I have many and have addressed them. I accept her exactly as she is with love unconditional. I just wish I could have her near though.
She has GOT to run out of money soon, she has been making major purchases which approach a full month's takehome pay.
Sorry for the rambling, not sure what if anything I am even asking.
