Rick, thanks. I hear you, too, man. I still think I know who my W is and who should could be. Can she ever get there? I don't know. But I'm willing to give her the opportunity to get there and see if we can still pick up the pieces at that point.
Today was a another nice day. I spent a lot of the day getting stuff done in preparation for my football party tomorrow. The game's blacked out on local TV, but we'll still have fun.
Did have a text exchange with my W. Just about bills, primarily. I didn't really hurry to respond. I was busy. The biggest one is I dropped it on her there were extra charges on her cell phone last month. I'll have to admit that every time my W texts me right now, it kind of irritates me. It's probably because I know it's something negative or something I need to deal with. This has been happening prior to the tacky text earlier in the week.
I did take a break and took my S to the bike path. We rode 6.4 miles together. The temperatures were in the mid 60s today. We have a unique one of a kind toy store in town and he wanted to stop at it. So we ended up spending some time there. We went out to eat and headed home.
I got up before church yesterday and ran 3 miles. I'm still a little sore from the run yesterday. I'm just trying to get back into it, biking season is going to be winding down. It was good church service yesterday - I went to the earlier service and I was late.
I had my football party yesterday. I didn't know what to expect. The game was blacked on local TV and it was Thanksgiving weekend. I had three guys show up - just the core of the Men's group. It was good, though. We listened to the game on the radio and watched another one on TV. I got to know these guys a little better - really good guys from my church.
It was a cool, rainy, day yesterday. I just watched some more football after the party and my S watched some TV. We ran out to get something to eat and go to the grocery last night.
I am still off work today. It's another rainy day, with temperatures in the 40s. I spent the morning talking with the cleaning lady for bit before heading to my favorite local coffee shop. It's a nice place to hang out. Sometimes I'll strike a conversation with someone that comes in. Sometimes I'll run into the same people, too.
I smuggled in Chipotle once again for my S at school. Talked to my 5th grade friends while I there and went to indoor recess.
I'll have to say I've still been in a funk lately. I think it's partly because of the interaction I had with my W last week. I think the weather's getting to me a little bit, too. I also think the holiday season is affecting me, too.
I got a text from my W today while I was at my S's school. Every time my W sends me a text nowadays. I get a surge of adrelanin. I'm still ticked at her. For me, I just need to let it go and do what I need to do. She asked if it was OK if she stopped by the house to pick up some Christmas decorations this afternoon. I didn't say this, but I thought it - "I guess it would be OK, as long as you come alone." I just gave her a short response. Earlier today, I had emailed her the phone bill with no text - just the attachment. BTW, I did not look at the phone bill details.
I am back at the coffee shop now. On the way here, I stopped by a thrift store and picked up a $6 suitcase to leave in Belize full of goodies. That in itself lifted my spirits.
I think a bike ride is out this afternoon. It's just not very nice out there. I may go straight at the weather though and go for hike. At least the streams should be full of water.
This afternoon, I did go for the hike. I hiked 4.8 miles. In the rain. I actually enjoy it in the rain. I'm equipped to handle it. It was only a light rain anyway. The streams were full of water and there were streams where streams don't normally exist.
Anyway, I get back to my house and my W is still there. She was still gathering some Christmas decorations. My S came up immediately from the basement upset because my W told him his fish had died at her apartment. I haven't seen that much drama from my S in quite some time. I think he tends to put on a show just for her for some reason. All in all, it was a pleasant enough interaction with my W. She had a single box of Christmas decorations she took with her. She asked if I would carry it upstairs for her, and then made a remark intimating maybe I didn't want to - she knows I'm still ticked. She doesn't like it when anyone's ticked at her. I did take the box upstairs and offered to carry it out to the car for her.
I took my S to Scouts tonight and we came home and spent some time together. After bedtime, he wanted to talk to me. There were some things going on that were bothering him - one of them was that my W is dating. I only told him I didn't like it.
JB sorry your S and you had to hear this. I can not believe what adults would do to children and their families in their search of a fantasy. You handle it well. Your are in my thoughts.
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“Failure is not fatal, but failure to change might be.”
Sorry about the latest in your sitch JB but like Rick said you are doing an unbelievable job handling it. My son who is the same age is very sensitive to my situation and I hope if it comes to it I can handle it as well as you.
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at her. For me, I just need to let it go and do what I need to do. She asked if it was OK if she stopped by the house to pick up some Christmas decorations this afternoon. I didn't say this, but I thought it - "I guess it would be OK, as long as you come alone." I just gave her a short response. Earlier today, I had emailed her the phone bill with no text - just the attachment. BTW, I did not look at the phone bill details.