I am not doing so great today. Trying to stay focus on my work, but my mind keeps drifting back to my H.

And if someone ask me how I am doing, I say ok and walk away crying.

Everyone is telling to file for a divorce. But my heart is telling me the opposite.

H: 49
W: 47
D: 6
M: 6 1/2 yrs
H: Bomb #1 6-2010
H: Bomb #2 7-2011
H: Separated: 7-11-11
Reconciling 2-2012
Separated: 1-31-15 (I asked him to move out)