Living with groundlessness

[AntoniaB]

I think I'm doing it because I would do it for "MOST" anyone. As in, if OW was asking me to pull her in the boat and I had room, I'd let her drown. I just have all the anger directed at her. It't not hard to because she looks like such a complete obnoxious diva from any pics I've seen, incredibly self-centered (and that's what a few random people have told me). I don't think I'm doing it for emotional reciprocation (the hope of it) as I am so sure he will ignore me at least right now, and so far, he has.

The only thing that runs through my mind is a line from a book I love where a character writes a poem and then tears it up, and her lover asks her why and she says she wrote about them, and their love, and she intends to scatter the thoughts from the train in hopes that some of them take root.

That's what is in my head. A story :-)