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Thanks for the advice, it's great. We have been running as a family when H is home. The kids often ride bikes or scooters (too little to keep up with a real run). H usually has his headphones on but occasionally will try to race me or jokingly (let's hope?) push me off the sidewalk. I also run alone so it isn't just something I do with him. Interestingly though, recently, he's waited for me to go with him versus going by himself.

Question for the sex starved, I think my situation may be gradually improving...but I got a harsh wakeup call this weekend. He admitted (I don't even remember how it came up) that he and OW are going on a weekend trip in the middle of this month. He is very confused on who he wants to be with, but obviously, things are continuing with his A.

The night before, H woke me up in the midddle of the night and said, "I want you". We didn't have intercourse (haven't since way before his A) but did some sexual stuff. The night after I found out about his trip, he was affectionate and we had another sexual encounter which included me giving him some oral sex. (first time he has seemed comfortable with that since his A).

I have been feeling like these encounters help prove I'm not withholding on him...but I also question if I'm enabling his cake eating too much. He knows he is on thin ice with me and I have told him he needs to move out after the holidays if he won't give up his A.

He's only home a couple nights a week...so it isn't happening very often...but do you guys think the sexual stuff is good to be doing? Do you think it seems promising he's warming up in this way to me?

I know I get my hopes up a bit when we are close/intimate...but frankly, it's hard to get my hopes up too much given my sitch. Every day feels like a struggle. I also feel like it reasserts our marriage to have him be intimate with me and I don't feel bad if it causes him increased confusion or some guilt that he's cheating on OW. He holds me afterwards as we fall asleep, so seems also like there is some affection.

My H wouldn't touch me or sleep in the same bed with me for the first couple months of his A. (especially when I was in the dark). I think he was "done" with me at that point.

I also recognize H could just be sex starved when he's home...so he may just be using me.