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[learning2listen]

Grace,
thanks for the support.. these days are harder in ways and easier in others.. I cant contact him.. its time to accept and live as if.. this is my life now. All I can do is keep the foundation of my girls in place..

I would never wish this on anyone, but especially my girls, his actions say he is a WAS, other than that because he doesnt tell me anything its complete guess work, and my mind is too tired to guess anymore..

If I was truly what made him so unhappy then so be it.. I dont believe that, and I believe he is far from gone in my life.. but the damage he is doing to my girls is terrible.. and I dont think he sees it.

THis will be his guilt to harbor, but my youngest is so tender, and wears her heart on her sleeve, she just doesnt understand, and when she does get time with him she is happy, she doesnt say anything to him, about her confusion, or at least she doesnt tell me. but when she comes home she is grumpy, and I can feel her pain. its unfair. she is just a child.

my 16 yr old seems to be fine with all of it.. she says she felt he didnt really care about her for quite some time, and she has her dad who she knows loves her.

I just wish I could snap my finger and make my youngest pain go away. she doesnt need the pressure, she should be playing and having fun... thats it!