Ive had a realization this morning...
His behavior now is exactley the same as when I moved out of the house when we first seperated!
He was still drinking and just recentley admitted to takeing RX drugs at that time (which was a HUGE shock!) His friend had just died and he was spending every minute at his house (2 hr drive away) with his friends wife/widow to the point were I had a feeling there was something going on or it was heading in that direction (he would get up really early and leave before I woke up so as not to have to tell me were he was going..would stay weekends "helping" her around there house, went to the funeral with out telling or asking me to go etc...)
At this point he is spending all his time with people who drink in front of him and keeps alcohol in the house "for his friends"..several times ive been to the house and there is beer in the fridg. The OW drinks..as do all the people he is spending his time with.
this has me assumeing that he is drinking again or is heading in that direction....I know its obviouse but that would explain the over night "i want a divorce" and change in behavior....
yet he is still saying he will be sober 2 yrs in feb. and has told me he is not drinking...but as my friends have pointed out he is not exactley credibal right now...
I cant believe that he would start drinking again after all his hard work but i cant help but see the similarities in his behavior..and he keeps saying that being with me is a risk to his sobriety, yet having beer in his fridg and hanging with drinkers 24/7 is not????????


Me:48 H:42
M: 18 yrs.
S: 9/1/09 due to alcoholic H
D bomb: 9/9/11
OW confirmed 10/30/11
D papers filed 11/01/11
S15 S21(Special needs) S28

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