Forward, slow as she goes

[BeingMe]

I've been saving a whole 50 bucks since the beginning of the year. LOL That's my squirreling. He controls the finances, and there's not much I can do, except be glad he's paying my uni fees, and if I need extra, like for Christmas, he will give it. He's a good provider in that way.

I do try and get away when he's home, but he wants to tag along. I have no idea what's in his head. He doesn't want me, but he wants to hang out. I am getting so confused. My S24 and I went to pick H up at the airport the last time. My S24 loves his dad, but even he is confused about what he is doing. We have told the kids we are separating (last year, some time) --- he does sleep in the spare room. So, we sleep in separate bedrooms, but then he comes through the airport and gives me a big hug, squeezing tightly, and a kiss (he does the same when he leaves). I warned S24, I said, "watch, and see what he does, and you tell me what gives?" S24 just gave me a shrug ... he doesn't know anymore than I do. He's been doing this for years, even during his weird MLC. He gives such conflicting messages, that I don't know where I stand. I need to get on my own, so I can see what happens then. Will he pursue me, or leave me alone? Then I will know for sure.

Anyway, I'm not making sense to myself now ... gotta go to bed. Thanks y'all for coming onto my thread and advising me. I really appreciate it.