Of course you still love him, Punkin. He was your h for many years. I would be worried if you didnt.
That said, there is no timetable here. You will get there when you get there. My xh has done unthinkable things, yet I love him still. Dont like him at all, but there you go.
Behind all your jokes and sarcasm, there is a very kind, loving woman. Our lives are not what we thought they would be.
So, dont be so hard on yourself. You have come so far and have managed through some tough stuff.
