Hope everyone had a wonderful and blessed Thanksgiving.
I and my D25 visited my D33 in Louisiana. She has a wonderful new home and I hadn't seen my two grandsons in almost six months.
I've been catching back up this evening on everyone's threads. It seems many of us are experiencing the conflicting feelings associated with the Holidays. That's the five dollar way of saying "This time of year S@@Ks." I know I should count my blessings, but still wish I was further along in my own journey.
I have seriously considered making of list of Pros and Cons of my XH. I know without a list that the Cons outweigh the Pros, but still suffer from the big ILUVMYX Syndrome. In reading Beatrice's thread, I notice she is comfortable with still loving her X. Why do I feel like such a douche? Especially as he has made me the bad guy throughout?
Time, time, time. I know. Just wish I was further along from where I was at this time last year. Wish I could get over the gnawing anxiety in the pit of my stomach and my behind my eyes. Probably has something to do with our home just sold at auction for only what was owed on it. $60,000 less than appraised value. Well, he's off the hook for the house payment, and has to start paying alimony. Just another stab at everything we were as a couple was crap to him.
Eric, step up and chew me out Man! Slap me with a 2 x 4. Pelt me with snow covered rocks. Scream at me to SNAP OUT OF IT!
