Journaling.... W dropped off the kids today. She saw me and gave me a huge smile. I Miss those smiles. Come to think of it, I haven't seen her smile like that in a very long time. She came in and hung around a bit. We get along just fine. She's very nice to me. Is she softening? Maybe she's not feeling pressure from me. Either way I think it's a baby step....or not. Maybe she's in a new relationship. I need to stop worrying about it right now. It doesn't matter. This is not about her anymore. It's about taking care of me...this is my time now.
I wanted to get some opinions on something. As you have know I'm being audited by the IRS. I've been going through my bank statements (for 2009 and 2010) line by line separating each transaction into its proper category. I noticed that right after my W's 31st birthday (she will be 33 in a few months) her smoking increased quite a bit. From around $35 a month to $60-$70 a month. She always claimed she smoked because is reduced stress. Could this possibly have anything to do with her MLC? Just a coincidence?
