*hugs* ITM. You're going to feel better going dark. Seriously. It's hard, but you will get a very good sense of self and peace once you do.
Next time he asks if you're having a moment. Send him back a text with only these words: Are you?
If he sends anything back... send: Busy now, can't talk. TTYL. (and don't send anything back until the next time he texts).
And yes... the look of them after a while makes you want to ralph. Normal. You'll go through times where you'll want to cling to them like a small child and other times where you want to paste them in the face with a full sized shovel.
T:22, M:20 H:55 Me:45 H-OW PA: N/07 OW Jan08 Bomb:Feb/08 S: Apr/08 Back together Ap1/09-Sept/11 Oct, 2011, uncertain future/H is a mess. Dec/11 - Doin'friend mode. Some days are better than others.