I know that this thing with her has NOTHING to do with me, but the complete lack of sensetivity regarding my feelings is so foriegn for him...it is so painfull, i feel like ive slid right back to the day i caught them in our bed...he kept texting me last night asking if I needed anything else from the house and if I had gotten everthing...i never answered him and he finally sent me a text "are you having a moment?"......I swear I thought my head was going to burst....the utter disregard is staggering...
I have never felt this way about him before..the thought of seeing him or speaking to him makes me feel sick...which will make going completley dark all that much easier. I will not contact him unless S141 is in ER or bleeding profusely...Im over being his punching bag.
Now i just have to sit through yet another joke of a Co Parenting session this week, but i will sit there and listen and not say a word unless asked...
lots of tears this weekend...i swear i am so sick of it, i can hardly stand myself..

Me:48 H:42
M: 18 yrs.
S: 9/1/09 due to alcoholic H
D bomb: 9/9/11
OW confirmed 10/30/11
D papers filed 11/01/11
S15 S21(Special needs) S28

Look to yourself, It is there that all your answers are found...