I have been so down lately I can't seem to get back up. H just brought the boys back and he didn't seem in a rush to go home was talking to me about tv shows and random crap. I just really miss him and don't think he misses me at all. We seem to be getting along better he talks to me more but I think that is because I told him I didn't want to be with him anymore. Think it was a relief for him. I keep thinking I should call the L and say I want to hold off filing until after Christmas. I just don't want to go back to how things were between us. I just don't know what to do anymore.
