Ugh...stressed, sad, still hanging on by a thread

[In_Shock]

I was watching for you (still no c phone...) and hoping ur thanksgiving went well. I'm sorry he's still being nasty. If u remember, W won't let go of the past with us either --- 6 years later. I think that it's their problem, not ours. We've tried to move on and make things work/right, and that holding on to old hurts is keeping them stuck as we try to get in a better place.

You are right--if nothing is different for HIM, it won't work. He has to realize his part in it, his problems, and his inability to let go and trust. I've failed quite often as you know, but I keep plugging. You and I are doing it mostly now for our kids.... We want an intact family so badly, both of us. BUT we have to make sure we keep those healthy changes and the boundaries. I have a real problem with boundaries!!

I'm sorry he also remarked on Christmas. That seems like a spur of the moment thing to hurt you. This time of year is difficult in normal times, but in these, as gunny's post is titled "Times that try men's souls" it takes a lot out of us. Especially those of us who are trying to keep our families.

I can honestly say I think of you daily. I've been slammed with work and school - (good in a way b/c I can't worry as much about W and all the bs) I haven't even checked the 'alternate universe' for over a week or more. About 150 papers to read, 3 books to read, and a lot of bureaucratic end of semester nonsense ---- and I again honestly say...I think of you and D EVERY DAY. EVERY DAY. I'm still here--- after about December 11 or so when school ends --- I hope to have more time-- but then I'll just obsess about things...LOL. (JK I hope!)

I still think he's far from being done and is struggling madly with himself. Hang in there my good friend. Hang in there!!!!!!