Thanks so much for stopping by NLW and JB, but I think the ice water running through my veins turned to mud...
Well, it seems like a life time since I've posted here. So much has happened. After D's soccer we had a really good interaction on Wednesday, and I finally found out his plans for Thanksgiving.
He was spending it with his family, and then going to his friend's house. Unfortunately, this friend's house is where I believe he is running into 'texting girl'. I know she was a friend of his BFFs. I did invite him to come by that day, but he didn't show.
I ended up being really sad on Tday. He called briefly and that was it.
The day after we had a terrible marathon talk. He started out being ticked off because he asked for a weekend with D, and I made the mistake of wanting to check the calendar first (?). Guess I'm not allowed to make plans now.
That set off a really long, completely draining talk. All the usual topics, I failed miserably at DBing, and he also through in there he wouldn't be spending Christmas with us at all. I'm afraid I lost it coming so close on the tail of a really sad Thanksgiving.
So, it was nothing new really, everything is still my fault, nothing has changed, he can't let go of his anger and resentment, blah blah blah. He asked me why I thought things would be different. I told him the only thing I could tell him honestly, was that I am different and that I made those changes for me. But I also told him, if nothing was different for him that it would never work. That's a true statement I think, right?
Anyway, he sent me a nasty text later and I didn't respond. Haven't heard from him since.
One bright spot, a sweet friend of mine planned a girl's weekend for when H will have D to cheer me up. What would we do without our friends??
