Journaling... nothing much to say tonight. One interesting moment from today was this morning as W was getting ready to head to breakfast with friends. S told her he was going to grandma's. W turned and looked at me and said, "Your going out again today?" and the unsaid part contained in her look was "and what the hell are you doing?". I just said yes, some things to do and people to meet and walked upstairs. That felt goooooood
W worked most of the day. Texted me and asked if I could make her a pot pie so it was ready when she got home. Said yes since I'm not a complete tool Spent some of the afternoon playing with S, painting, and reading with him. Cleaned the kitchen today as it needed it... somewhat of a 180 for me. The 180 though is that in the past when I did it, it was to curry favor with W. Now I just did it because it needed to be done. Don't care if W noticed or not.
Made sure I was in the basement working out when she got home. This forced her to eat dinner alone which I know she hates, but she best get used to it, right? After a while I got done and came upstairs. We talked Christmas stuff. Then she told me about her vacation requests at work. She mentioned a week in March she is taking off and said "I took it off for..." and then trailed off. She didn't finish it. I was assuming she was heading towards using the week to get divorce stuff started formally. But she didn't say anything more, and I just left it alone.
She works 12 hours tomorrow so it will be S and I again. Not sure what we'll do... we could use some veg time and no church service tomorrow so we'll see.
Married 6 together 8 Me:38 W:31 second marriage for both SS12, SD10, S6 Bomb: 9/8/11 (day before our 5 yr ann) W moved out: 2/18/12 D final: 11/12/12 Share S 50/50. Spend as much time as I can with SS & SD
