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[irishblessings]

I can't thank you all enough for your support and sage advice:) I know he is angry and I know he is hurt by the way his last 2 years of high school have turned out. He has told me that he shouldn't have to put up effort to reach out to his dad - his dad should just be here. I know he feels abandoned and angry - but I also know that I can't allow him to fall into an abyss of self-pity and self-destruction.

I have no plans on giving up on him. I understand Antonia's perspective about stepping away and not going to his games and such. The same rule applies for me that it has with the divorce - I have to look myself in the mirror and believe that I have done EVERYTHING I was supposed to do to be a supportive parent (wife) and to prove my commitment to my role as his mother. For better or worse...I may sound like a fool and God knows I've got PLENTY of reasons to walk away from the whole d*mn thing but that's not who or what I am.

Thanks again for your help!