He confided in me about wanting to bring his daughter to the petting zoo. He's mad because of something his daughter said: calling the OW's husband... Daddy. It hurt him. Now, he's really intent on getting "his own" time with her. He hates the parasite's husband more than I hate the parasite. Irony.
He asked me out to breakfast,... and he likes to "test". Talked about winning the lotto,... I said, you'd have to find a detective to find me. He said, I'd give you half... whatever you wanted. I said,... "I'm just teasing you. Isn't that what you say to me?" Talk about passive aggressive stuff eh? *shakes head*
Breakfast,... I wondered out loud about buying a house in the area where the resto was. And I said,... "seeing as I'm going to be alone". I *almost* teared up, but then he said. "Well,... we need business in town where you like that townhouse... (he believes we're going to stay in business no matter what happens between us.)
I didn't say anything, so he continues: "or we could buy that set of semi detached side by side." (This has been something I said from last time we started to piece, the parasite claimed her unborn child was allergic to cats. I have cats. At that time I told him, well we could buy a duplex or semi's side by side, because I will NOT give up my cats.)
My question quietly, ... you'd still do that? His answer: "Maybe." Then he pauses again and says: "or we can maybe win enough money were we... WE... can move anywhere". That's when he pinches his two fingers together... smiles, and makes sure I see what he's doing and that it was "code" for what we'd talked about on Thursday.
I got through to him. A small babystep... but I got through to him! During all that craziness on Thursday, when it was I who begged him to let each other go and do whatever he could to buy me out so I can get the hell away... during one of our "honest" moments... I said, I want to separate too. And yes, I realize there are not more mulligans for us... and we're probably never going to be together again. BUT... I'm leaving the door opened "this much". He did the same. And said, I want to do that too.
I dabbed my eyes, and made a joke: Said, you're costing me a fortune in eye makeup. The roller coaster ride continues....
Abbey.
T:22, M:20 H:55 Me:45 H-OW PA: N/07 OW Jan08 Bomb:Feb/08 S: Apr/08 Back together Ap1/09-Sept/11 Oct, 2011, uncertain future/H is a mess. Dec/11 - Doin'friend mode. Some days are better than others.
