Trying to be still when I really want to scream!

[psalm46:10]

I am learning that the only one I have control over is me. That has been a source of contention in our marriage- my need to control. I know that is one of the lessons God is teaching me in this situation. I believe that not only is my husband on a journey, but I am as well. I am learning to give the control over to God, as he is the only one that can redeem my husband.

H has admitted that during counseling he has determined he has a problem with women. His mom was married 5 times. His 1st wife had an affair. He said it was like a light switch went off and all these emotions came rushing back. I read one of the resources on the MLC page about why they run- most have had traumatic childhoods, etc.

I just keep praying that he will wake up and see what he is doing to the kids and that he will not choose to throw away a 17 year relationship.

What they don't realize is that their problems go with them when they leave. I may not be a perfect wife, but then again who is? But I am willing to do what I need to do to change my faults that led to this. I just wish there was a way to get him to see that running from his problems is not the answer!