Wife no longer In love with me - part 5

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I haven't posted for a while, I've been trying to take a break from all of this. Today was 4 weeks since I've had any contact with my W. And it's weird, until today i have been feeling better, and now all of a sudden I just got so upset and missed her again.

I've been doing a lot better effort of GALing......booking a lot of holidays, off to costa rica in January and then back to the Maldives in April, both to go on surf trips. And then next weekend, I'm off on a work trip for two weeks to Fiji, hong kong and indonesia....good to be out of town.

Now the interesting part. I posted here a while ago about whether I would meet anyone again and what will happen to me.....particularly as there was a very cute account exec who works on our advertising. Well it turns out last week after a long day of work, we went for a drink together....and since then we've seen each other another two times for dates. She is lovely, very pretty and a nice person. I know I'm not ready for anything, as i still miss my W, but I feel like I may not meet someone like this again......plus she is going on the work trip with us, so that will be awkward, as we have to keep this a secret.

I spent today with some friends and their kids, and that's probably what has made me sad, as I may never have that and I still feel I wrecked that chance. With Christmas coming up I can imagine it will be tough, and the feelings and pain will be strong again.
It's so surreal to think this time last year we were decorating our house and planning Christmas in America......how life changes and so quick!