Feeling it a little worse today. Settling in I guess. Riding a roller coaster of different emotions. I'm sure that's expected.
I kept myself very busy though. That helps. Being busy with more physical hands on things is easier. But I do have computer work to do so hopefully I can handle that.
Yesterday early in the day I wanted to see her but I think that was before reality had really set in. She seems to know that I don't want to see her or she can't face me. She arranged it so that we visited the same family but at different times.
Right now I really don't want to see her at all. I think it will be too painful. I think I will ask her to take the week off so that I don't have to see her.
Saw her picture posted on FB tonight. She looked very heavy for her (she's very slender). Maybe she's gained a lot of weight and I haven't noticed. or maybe it was the perspective. But she was red faced and looked puffy. She hasn't been drinking at all for awhile so if she had a few they probably hit her hard.
