I know the holidays are going to sukk this year so I am just doing what I have to get through it. Next year is going to be better I just know it.
I really missed H yesterday was weird to cook everything alone. Used to having him help me. He came over really early in the am to see the boys. All dressed up in his new clothes but said he was staying home. I don't buy it but said nothing.
Got to see my nephew, he is so cute going to be 1 in Jan. My sister and her h tried so hard to have a baby and finally adopted last year. I am so happy for them and it was great to see them as a family. Made me sad though so strange how you can be so happy for someone else and sad for yourself. I just want to have my family back. Always thought it would be the 4 of us weird to just have 3. Oh well boys had a great day that is all that counts. They love having their cousins over.
I wonder when H is going to tell them he won't be here for Christmas. I hope he comes up with something good and doesn't tell them the way he told me like it is my fault he had to go away for Christmas that isn't going to fly with me
