I just don't get her... but I guess we're past the cold and distant thing again. She actually came home last night. And this morning she came downstairs while I was getting coffee and figuring out what I got last night. I ignore her and she starts up an hour's conversation on what my night was like last night. Then she took off to a friend's new restaurant opening. S is with grandma today, but she'll be home later with him so I can GAL.

She's fun... really, she's just so all over the map. But in the past I would've felt hopeful about our interaction this morning, especially since it's been so harsh lately. But I don't have hope... just grateful it's not harsh in the house right now.

Frankly... a small but growing part of me wishes this was "her weekend" and I was free to do whatever today and didn't have to see her or get my chain jerked even a little. Then I feel bad about having that part of me... then I feel righteous for having it... then I just get confused smile All part of the process I'm guessing.

Man do I need an IC appointment, but not for another two weeks. Bleh.

Married 6 together 8
Me:38 W:31 second marriage for both
SS12, SD10, S6
Bomb: 9/8/11 (day before our 5 yr ann)
W moved out: 2/18/12
D final: 11/12/12
Share S 50/50. Spend as much time as I can with SS & SD