Feel like I'm living the movie Groundhog Day...

[workinghardguy]

Just got back from Black Friday shopping. W and I used to be a kick-butt Black Friday team. Missed her tonight, both because I missed her and because tactically it's a lot easier to BF shop with two people! It's very hard to defend your XBox in your cart whilst also doing hand to hand combat for the last copy of COW: Black Ops

But what I really wanted to post is that I feel bad for my W tonight. Here it is Thanksgiving... and she came home to an empty house. Ended up eating the food her mom sent home with me all by herself in an empty house. Eventually she ended up over a at a friend's house where she is drinking and will pass out on the couch.

As I thought that narrative through in my head it just seemed so profoundly sad and empty. She would tell you it's not. That she is with friends and friends mean everything. She would say that she spent the day at work caring for veterans, and somebody had to do it. And yes, she's right... to a degree.

But if things were different... if she hadn't made it so clear she wants nothing to do with me, we would've been home here for her. Yes, S and I left MIL's and went to my mom's for Thanksgiving, but my mom could've come here too. My mom would've stayed here to watch S while I or we went Black Friday shopping.

Instead my W's choices have lead her, on the most family of holidays, to someone else's house, drunk, and asleep. It just sounds so very sad and empty, and I feel for her. I will not fix it or make it better, but that doesn't mean I don't feel compassion for the ramifications of her decisions.

BTW... as an aside, I know about the friend's house because she texted me to tell me she was there, she had been drinking, and might fall asleep there. I don't know why she texted me, she doesn't do that usually. But she did, so there's that and whatever it means.