thank you for the heart felt advice Kaffe, i great appreciate it. she has kicked me a few times but that was a very long time ago...years ago now.
you are spot on, however, when you suggest that it would be somewhat of a distraction, i'll just help my son with his card and that will be all. she's already said that she doesn't give a crap about our relationship any longer so i suppose i need to start detaching from it as well.
i know that she has feelings for me and wants me to be happy and all of that, which i want for her as well. i confess that i think it would be fairly awful for my son but then again, there's a chance of my staying which could make it awful for him too and, in that case, then it would be better were i gone.
i walk away when i get really angry, and always have when i'm able to do so. i don't like the feeling of being angry or the things that i may say when i am. i usually end up regretting it in some manner.
gah...i would hate to be hitting that bait.
i know i have to do so and for the life of me i wonder why it seems so bloody hard to do! other issues are clouding this and it's probably going to be a tricky thing to pull the roots out of this but i'm working on it every day.
i'll post as often as i can though it becomes problematic as my online activity is one of the things which she doesn't care for very much, due to my own previous actions i want to make clear.
