Need HOPE & Advice

[PERSEVERANCE]

Thanks V. Great advice... "That makes sense". Regarding the LRT, I pray it will never get to that point. Separation is tough... I'm in the Reserves/Guard....So, normally I'm home all of the time w/ my family, but the last few years have been crazy with deployments etc. Part of my 180 has been to calm down, be slow to anger, be optimistic & more outgoing. This merges well with my GAL when I get home ( signed up for yoga & learning to snowboard). I've completed backed off of the R talk. I have appts w/ IC- behavioral health... not sure, but I may need meds for anxiety/depression.***Should I test the waters & invite my W to yoga...or just keep these GAL activities for myself. We used to go to the gym together every night... Should I go by myself, or ask if we can go together. She promised to put off the D talk until after New years. I'll be home right before Christmas, I found out that she is planning a small "coming home- holiday party" ... I was thinking that would be a great opportunity to show people that I'm becoming more optimistic, out-going & less angry. I'm pretty sure that my W could be considered a potential WAW...she tried to help me...I was in a different place emotionally/mentally at the time & it took the D word to shake my world and motivate me to change. I know that I will make lasting changes to improve myself.... I just hope its not to late to keep my family together. I love and adore them so much.I truly believe that God gave this burden to me to cause positive changes in myself. Rambling again... Home next month yahoo! THANKS EVERYONE! I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WOULD DO WITHOUT ALL OF YOU.