Thank you nblost and west coast..
I will do the best I can to switch gears when it pops in my head, and it is true, He is no way, shape or form ready to be in any kind of relationship so I know this one wont last..or at the very least be healthy but its hard to watch him run around so obliviouse to the pain he is causeing and so unbelieveably HAPPY!!..not a care in the world...
oh to be that heartless....


Me:48 H:42
M: 18 yrs.
S: 9/1/09 due to alcoholic H
D bomb: 9/9/11
OW confirmed 10/30/11
D papers filed 11/01/11
S15 S21(Special needs) S28

Look to yourself, It is there that all your answers are found...