I spent all night with XW..........on the phone

[tadpole1025]

Thanks.

Things are getting a little better.

I think I have found a place to live. Now, I have to figure out how to get in there with all of the deposits.

I still love her dearly, but I still can't believe how cold and heartless she is towards me.

She was at the house today to pick up a few leftover things and S16 for the long weekend.

I didn't talk much and neither did she. I could feel my anger boiling inside and it started to come out towards her but I squashed it.

This was interesting though:

Over the years, we had saved every love letter that we had written to each other. We had an entire box full of them. We also had a mirror that I made her in high school that said: "Tad Loves XW."

When she moved out, she told me to keep the mirror because I made it. She also wanted to throw the letters away and I wouldn't let her. Then she wanted to burn them. In the end, I ended up keeping them because I couldn't part with them. Today, I asked if she wanted the mirror. She said yes and I asked her why. She said "because it is still part of my life." I gave it to her and sat the box of love letters next to it in the garage and said "here is the box of letters we have written to each other." She looked at it and then finished what she was doing. When she left, to my surprise she put the mirror in her car and also came back for the letters. I didn't ask why. Just thought I would share because I found it interesting.

Tad