H got home and I realized I was feeling a tad TOO detached. He met me at a school event for D4 and I felt very unconnected to him. I do think it's good but makes me feel less friendly than before. I did act positive overall and I have a very cute outfit on. The only issue we had was when we went out for frozen yogurt afterwards, H showed me a picture on his phone (of his work) and when I tried to touch the phone so I could see the picture better, he tightened his grip on it. I said, "I'm not trying to look at your phone", and he swore under his breath.

We both recovered a couple minutes later. I shouldn't have said anything, but also didn't feel bad because his psycho-ness around his phone is his own making. Last weekend, he was on his phone and D8 started quietly singing a little song, "secrets, secrets, daddy has secrets"...kids definitely do observe things!

I will hopefully be going out tonight for a couple drinks with a friend.

This situation is so hard...H acts normal for the most part, but we have this crazy undercurrent of his affair. I guess I'm thankful he is being nice and is coming home...but it is just so weird/hard. Once again, if only I knew more about what was going on in his crazy head.


M 44, H 46
D11, D9, D5
Married 12 years
PA confirmed 9/2011
I filed 3/2012
H moved out 7/2012