our conversations since that last one have all been indicative of two people staying together even though she hasn't explicitly said so. i don't know if this is the second chance or not...i feel that it may be.
i know i need to do something to get a few extra dollars coming in and i just can't get a freakin' break with that disability crap. *sigh* i suppose that i'll have to start over in something...i may even have to go back to fastfood... the last time i did that was about 18 years ago or so and the standing will be difficult but i can handle it.
the real issue for me, in this interplay, has been her decision to demand sole physical custody and then only allow me to interact with my son at her discretion. that isn't ok with me. if that is how it is going to be then i'm moving to where i actually want to live instead of staying here. i've stayed in MD for relationship after relationship and have never managed to get out West. perhaps this is the time to do so.
so much undecided and unknown. it's hard to do anything and i feel paralyzed.
