I have to tell you as much as I didn't want H to move out it was for the best. It is so horrible living with someone who is so miserable and can't stand the sight of you. It was very tense. We are getting to a much better place now. I don't think anything has changed he still is done but it is so much better not living with him.

Are there any real plans for moving out?? Have you guys talked about custody for your S?

Stop talking about your R at all costs. It really is just pushing her away. I don't say anything to H about us and no matter what garbage he tells me I just say ok. Then I come here and freak out but he doesn't know. I keep trying to tell myself to treat him like a co worker or just someone I know that I have no emotional attachement to. It is getting easier and sometimes it is even fun to see the confused look on his face!

Take care. I am thinking of you.