Today is another rainy day here. I had enough craziness on the bike yesterday, so I'm giving myself the day off.
I stopped by my favorite local coffee shop (with a sticker on the front door that says Friends don't let friends drink Starbucks ) this morning for a cup of coffee. Struck up a conversation with the owner, I ran into him on the bike path last week - he's big into roller blading. I'm back at the coffee shop now for round 2.
I spent the time in between back at my S's school. I smuggled in Skyline chili today and stayed for indoor recess and a movie. I know my S is absolutely thrilled to have me there at school. I take it now for as long as it lasts. I stopped and talked to one of his teachers from last year. She's noticed a positive change in my S. I just told her I am trying to establish a positive environment at home, and that seems in part at least, to be helping.
One thing I haven't mentioned too much about my W is that she had some major down periods even before the bomb. I guess when the bomb dropped was when she decided that either be married period or being married to me was the cause of those down periods - or she's not sure, but certainly willing to give D a try to see if that fixes it for her. I really makes me sad that she can't find happiness. I can say in retrospect, it was wearing me out when I was trying to help her find that happiness.
I've been having my on and off anxious moments today, but other than that I'm not doing too bad. I'm just a little anxious about her complaint about doing all the driving. She will have my S on Thanksgiving day, but she has to work Friday. I think I'm just going to set the tone when I drop him off tomorrow evening - I'll give her option of dropping him off on Thursday night or Friday morning. I think I just get a little anxious about the dispute part of it, like I'm preparing for a fight. I'm still a little appalled that she had gotten upset when I didn't want to pick my S up before she went to work on her weekend. I'm more than willing to stand up for the right thing, as long as I'm sure it's the right thing.
) this morning for a cup of coffee. Struck up a conversation with the owner, I ran into him on the bike path last week - he's big into roller blading. I'm back at the coffee shop now for round 2.
