Thought the roller coaster had bottomed out

[workinghardguy]

Ajay... let me echo what Sandi is saying... I will preface it with it hasn't made any real difference in my sitch, but this is marathon, right?

During one of our recent R talks my actually came out and said she really likes seeing me out there. Doing things without her, not relying on her for a life, and she said she has wondered what much of it is but isn't asking because she doesn't want me to think she disapproves. I joked that she's free to ask... I just may not tell her everything

So the WAW does notice. Will it matter in the end? I don't know. But in the mean time the benefits for me have been great. I have found a community of people at the church who are wonderful. I get to have great political and social conversations about big-thinking topics with some very smart and interesting people. I spend time with fellow volunteers and you know what? When I spend time with them they feel more connection towards me and then volunteer to do stuff! So now I'm doubly effective because I have more help.

There is even more GAL I'd like to do but because of money it's tough. But should we split money will free up and I have my list ready. I absolutely want to post pictures of myself on my Facebook page in my flight suit, looking good, having just completed my pilot's license. However, mainly I want to do that because I've always regretted not finishing my license. If my W sees the photos and thinks "what did I let go?" well, that's a good side benefit.

Lead a fulfilling life. You don't need anybody to do that... and certainly not your W. To steal Nike's line, "Just do it".