Look sweetie, I know I come off a little strong at times, but I just want you guys to see what "not to do" that is hurting your own chances in R with your WAW. I may not know everything that "does" work, but I think I can warn you of things that "don't".
The holidays seem to be extra hard on broken R's. You need to be around friends and family that love you and make you feel good. This is not a selfish act, it's survival. You have to go into survival mode or you won't make it through this.
Getting out of your house and doing things away from your W will help. Every post I've read from a LBH who finally starts doing the GAL, is astonished to find out it works! Good medicine!
((hugs))
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!