BTW, West, I had to go dark before the friends mode happened. Dark IS for you in a lot of cases, it helps you stand back and get your heart taped back together.

You can go dim, dark in certain areas and completely dark in others. That's what I had to do with H when we split. And it's where I'll end up when we split this time.

Again, stupid as it sounds, I KNOW we'll have to split in order to finish this mess once and for all. They'll want to play house (if it lasts that long)... and when he doesn't jump to her drum, the fireworks will start. That darkness/distance really gave me a sense of control over my own feelings and the patience to wait the thing out.

A few prayers for a quick sale on my house would be appreciated smile


T:22, M:20
H:55 Me:45
H-OW PA: N/07
OW Jan08
Bomb:Feb/08
S: Apr/08
Back together Ap1/09-Sept/11
Oct, 2011, uncertain future/H is a mess.
Dec/11 - Doin'friend mode. Some days are better than others.