Hi, rys, I have never heard of Light Blue, but I'll give it a sniff next time I'm shopping. How did the latest visit to colleges go for you and S? How is school going for you? Don't you have one more class to go before you start radiology school? How long is radiology school?
You know, if your H makes really good money, he can afford to splurge. As long as he gives you money for you and S, let him be. It won't change him to have you get too emotional with him, and say something you might regret. Just let him be, and let this whole ow thing play out while you make improvements to yourself. If you still think you may want him back one day, make it to where the road home is paved smoothly. Try to learn to accept him for who he is, and that means accepting that he is a weak man, a sinner like us all. I don't think you've ever learned to calm yourself down inside. It's like your nerves are constantly jumping, thinking about H and ow. I understand it; it was hard to think of anything else for a long time. I will pray for something to happen, for God to touch H's heart, so he will wake up to the bad things he has done, and that he will touch your heart, too, so that you will learn to forgive, and to just let your love of H show. And to help you get rid of all the resentful and hurt feelings your H has caused.
