Thanks JB and Ic4, I honestly do not know how I kept from losing it. I believe it was some sort of Divine intervention, because the 'old' me would have flipped. He has still not said anything about it, and I don't intend to. At this point, all I could expect would be an argument, and JB is right, I definitely wouldn't get the truth so what's the point? More hurt and aggravation?
I was going to post about some of the stuff we talked about, but I realized its just more of the same. Nothing really new to report. I am tired of hearing it, however. It feels good to stand up for myself and tell him to stop beating the dead horse. Enough already!
Ic4, I know you have a point with H's internal conflict- I think that's a big part of the problem right now. Does he want the 'family life' or the 'single life'? I also know I can't really help him with that decision. And I also know time is running out for him to make it- it took me a long time to get here, but I know I deserve better. I know I will be ok, no matter what. Its his loss.
Tonight at D's soccer he was actually very nice. He also kissed me good bye! That was a shocker, and while I enjoyed it I'm not expecting anything from it. We actually had a good laugh because D was in the back seat saying, 'stop kissing daddy on the lips! You gonna make him sick, Mama!'.
