Punches??What punches?

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Thanks Y'all for the feedback!!

What a week/month it has been. Quite a rollercoaster for my emotions.

For the past month or two it has been a bit of downer. Especially that i fell off my gym wagon and gained some weight back. Now i know how much 'feeling good about yourself' helps you emotionally. I just keep giving excuses everyday to go to the gym....

A part of my funk also has been all the flip flopping wife has been doing and lack of any momemtum in our sitch. And i guess the impending holidays

4 months back wife suggested us going to see a counselor to see if can be helped. Even though i had my doubts, i said yes to it. Started my search on finding a counselor. Then wife changed her mind. But i was able to convince her that if not anything we should try once to talk to counselor. She agreed. In october she changed her mind that she wanted me to come to her town to see a counselor. To which i said 'yes'. I told her that I am willing to make sacrifices if it meant saving my R with her. Just that evening she calls and up says that she does not want to do any counseling at all. I did not know what to think anymore...

My MIL then calls up and suggests that if i move back to wife's city then wife might change her mind. This is one thing that i was really not willing. Though i honestly entertained the thought in my mind. But at the end i felt that i would lose respect for myself if i did it.

Wife today calls me up for small talk. She has been trying to get her temp job permanent and seems like she got it. I told her that i was happy and congratulated her. We talked about stuff relating to daughter. I am bringing her to stay with me for thanksgiving. Then somehow we wandered into R talk. I told her "Wife, I am trying in every way to reach down and grab your hand to pull you out of pit of sorrow you are in so that we can walk and work together as partners. I am ready to be there next you as man. But somehow you chose to be in that pit. At this time i have nothing more left in me". Yea sounded like a movie line. But that's how i felt. Next thing i know wife is again asking me to look for a counselor in her city so we can figure this thing out.

Wow!!! what a ride! I don't need Six-Flags at all !