I definitely need time to process these things. I hate what this distrust is doing to me, and I know that H is the one who put me here, but I hate it!!
Every time he takes his phone into the bathroom, or puts his phone on silent. When he's away at work or running errands on the weekend, my mind goes crazy. Is he talking to her?? Are they meeting up?? Am I a big joke to both of them as they talk or meet?? I hate feeling like this, especially because I don't know for sure if they are even in contact still.
I don't want to feel like I have to put H under a microscope, but I can't help it. I just want her to disappear...Leave my family alone!! I've never hated anyone, but I am so close to hating this poor excuse for a woman!!
M:38, H:37, SS:17, D:12 ILYBINILWY: Aug. 2011 OW Discovered: Mid Aug. 2011 Piecing from Aug. - Oct.2011 I Moved out: Nov.2011 Moved back in piecing since: Nov. 5, 2011 H talking to OW again: May 15
