Thanks so much everyone. You all make it sound so easier than it is. I KNOW that if I could just stop the contact and detach, I could get so much better. So hard to do, but I am getting there ever so slowly.
I had a really bad day today. I cleaned out my garage and put more things in the yard for a yard sale. XW found out some more stuff that I was getting rid of because her sister lives three houses away. She is furious with me.
I agree with 25. My XW is beyond MLC. She is just gone. Have any of you noticed how your MLC spouse seems to contradict themselves all of the time or talk in circles? My XW does it constantly. She doesn't even realize it either.
Some of the highlights from her texts today:
She says it is ok that she has a pic of OM on her FB page because we are divorced now. (This started with OM before I knew there was even a problem.)
She says that I like to lie and play head games.
I like dark women. She accused me of thinking that she isn't ethnic enough for her. (Hello? She's got dark skin, black hair and big beautiful dark eyes.)
Told me to go "pop some more uppers." (I'm on anti-depressants.)
Accused me again of just throwing her life away and memories away.
Says that she wants more things from the house. I told her that she isn't entitled to anything else except for 6 more boxes in the garage that was agreed to in the divorce. She is coming to get them on Wednesday.
Accused me of involving the kids in this mess, but then I found out that she was reading her texts to S16. WTF?
Says that I let her know every single day how much I didn't want her.
The things that hurt the most though:
Says I never liked her.
Says I never wanted her.
Say I never LOVED her.
Do I need a 2X4? Nope. More like a 4X4.
Will she ever realize that I am not this terrible person? I just don't get it. I'm terrible, but yet she still wants to be friends.
She was mean and nasty again I let myself get sucked in AGAIN and have nobody to blame but myself.
Tad
Currently: M 57 XW 58 Sons 39,34,32,30
The Sitch: Married 26 years EA w/ OM 9/10 Bomb 10/10 (5 weeks after 25th anniversary) Sep 12/10 She wants D 1/11 W files 5/11 D final 10/11 XW marries OM 6/13
