I have been in such a funk lately. I know filing was the right thing to do for the boys, regarding child support. But I am just so upset about it. I kept thinking I would be ok in a few days but it isn't going away. I feel worse and worse. I don't know what H is going to say when he does get served and it could be anytime next week.
The ironic part is he seems to be talking to me more lately althought that could be since I told him I didn't want to be with him maybe he thinks I am ok with this. I am so not ok. I feel like a failure as a wife and a mother. there are so many things I wish I could do over, I really can see my part in this. When H dropped the kids off to day I just wanted to hug him and tell him I love him. That wouldn't have gone over well though.
I just don't want a divorce I just want my family back. I feel bad for the boys they keep asking me if daddy is coming for Thanksgiving.
