Dear Lord, what a blow to take. And yet you're still able to care for your children so gracefully... Just take it a day at a time, go with the flow. See how you feel. Right now, it's very understandable that you no longer wish to be M, but perhaps your feelings may change with time. (Remember, feelings aren't facts. They're very transient.) You will know what the right decision is when it comes time to make it.
