Feedback? & Deal with Lawyers without friction?!

[PERSEVERANCE]

Any more feedback? I would love to know what she is thinking about now? In my dreams she is having 2nd thoughts.Talks about L/mediators ...then this?Rec'd an email that said "Truthfully, you sound good, like you're much healthier emotionally and mentally. That makes me happier than you could ever know." & ended it with Love (W)..which I haven't seen a long time.Her last email was ALL very business-like (not mean...just not as warm as the last( car repairs etc).
Is there any way to delay the visit to the attorney/mediator without causing more friction? Do I just give up everything?I haven't brought up anything about R or MC since she dropped the Dbomb on me. Can't wait to get out of Afghanistan....very soon I'll be home. I've planned some great things to do with my kids...and starting snowboarding and yoga. Should I casually invite my wife to anything, or just wait for her? Her ic seems to be pro-divorce... How Can I be firm about protecting myself during this mediation without coming off as being antagonistic? Still giving her space , working on 180& setting gal plans. Sorry if I ramble- so many thoughts in my spinning head