That's sad about your friend losing her H. I guess it puts things into perspective for those who still have theirs. My H had some sort of anxiety attack or something tonight. I was afraid he was going to have a heart attack. He's okay now. I am going to see that he goes to the doctor next week.
Good for you, asking your H for what you wanted! I know that took guts. I guess he knows you can't be expected to trust him to just be good when y'all are apart. You have a good mental attitude. It will get you through.