I think that is what I am afraid of that he will be relieved. It hurts me that there is no emotion no sense of loss coming from him that this relationship we have had for 12 years is ending. I have stood by him him through so much, hurts me to think he is so willing to through it all away. My boys are so young, breaks my heart for them. S7 asked if dad was coming to Thanksgiving, he wants to ask him to come over. All I want is my family back and that is so not going to happen.
Feeling very lonely tonight and sorry for myself. [censored] that this is the holiday season also. I think it makes it harder.
